A Night With 7 Botaks!

Had a great night out with 7 BOTAKS! All the May Babies including ME! Wee~ These ppl are so fun! I really don't mind going out wif them again! WAHAHAHA! XD Had steamboat plus side dishes for dinner! Yummy~ So nice of them to pay the rest of the bill for me while i only paid $10. Thanks again! :) Had like 2 bowls of rice! YUMMY!!~ Hahaha..then we head to Jab for drinks & K-session! Hahaha..sooo FUN! Omg~ Justin U SING DAM WELL! O.O As for the rest, no worries, u guys sang well too! :D Justin & emoison(LOL, i don't know how to spell his name) left while the rest of us head to Toa Payoh to get Kar Fai's car. On the way there, got inspected by 2 cops asking for our ICs & why are we still out late at night. Zzz..so unlucky. Never mind about that..we drove to Alameen for supper! YEA! Miss those days, eating dinner or supper after a long day of projects! Serious people, Eric & I are just close friends..I don't want to be single but unavailable. Last of all, thanks Kar Fai for the ride home! :)

CLEAR!

What's clear? Alot of things.. One of them is that I'm certainly not going to join TRIO as a full timer..i think i will DIE within a few months. Really hope LTM will take me as a full timer, boss reply my msg leh, i want to get my pay too u know! X) Plus, I seriously need a full time job..not just to save for uni but to also give my parents & my siblings that extra money. OMG! I just realized those recent blog post filled with anger & sadness...O.O Hahaha..maybe this is my ranting place..wahahaha. Ohoh! hey stalkers from eric's section or bunk, actually i don't know what is it. I mean friendly stalkers..hahaha. XD Eric & I are just friends ok..ji dan gao. Shh..don't need to say my post out loud! hahaha. But whatever u read in the previous posts, that's all cleared! I hereby declare that I'm not into E.T.K.P. hahaha. Crap..I'm really hungry right now, must be the after sickness hunger..hahaha. Just recovered from a real bad headache & fever. Gosh..want to change name in IC also so troublesome. Need to get some lawyer's letter with parent's approval cause I'm under 21. Zzz..Should have signed up next year..and i doubt my mum will approve it, cause when I told her I wanted the name Yvette, she said: "what kind of name is that?!" GOSH, my money~

Do not understand.

I really don't get it. U said u just wan to stay tat way & nothing more even if we could or might have more. What is this? what r u trying to say? R u trying to tell me we should stay that way and nothing more coz of the list of things we wan our other half to be? What is this? havent u seen enough of the world to know that those things are juz fantasy? But i might be wrong..too confused. Why are things this way, havent i had enough burdens & hardships to get through? I should probably bury myself with work to refresh myself away from all these things.

Disappointed.

Feel so disappointed & used.
Seriously, am I a tool for yr entertainment or maybe just to fill up the emptiness that you have? What kind of friend are you, ya right, no secrecy. Bullshit i would say. Please, don't talk to me again unless u have a reasonable reason. Can't believe i treated you like a friend. Entertain you when u bored, talk to you when u are down & this is how you treat me. WOW, marvelous *claps*, i feel so honored to be your freaking portable entertainment system. Really thanks loads, dont let me hear from you that we shouldnt have secrets between each other, coz you are the one keeping it all in. JERK!

I need someone..

I have never been so sad for such a long period of time..

I need a shoulder to cry on..or i will start crying behind close doors.
PPL say u need a bf to help u. I'll say who is willing to unload those burdens on my shoulders and place it on theirs? I hav too much that it is drowning me..
I figured out that i most probably wont pursue further studies to save up..

I've drown too much to love, I've given to much to ask for mine, I'm losing the strength that once held those burdens and now..i'm losing my faith. I'm getting more evil, so please back away from me before I hurt anyone. Just let me cry alone and be alone no matter how much i yearn for one's love and attention as i require those TLC(Tender Loving Care) from those lovely people that i know..

Why so sad?

I told myself today that today was the saddest time of my life. Then I wonder, no it's not, it's just that I have been always happy but once in a while the thoughts of the burdens just crush it all. Not only burdens that crushes my happy days but seeing my friends and family feeling sad, it just weighs me down..

Too many burdens to clear and so little time..
Thinking for my future, my sibling's future..thinking bout the worst scenarios that could happened. Looking at my parents' depleting health, it just makes me worry more..I can't bear to go overseas to study, cause I will miss them and everyone else, worrying about them and wondering how they are coping. If I were financially stable, I might have lesser burdens. Maybe i shouldn't continue on my studies..I just work to earn money for my siblings' future & for emergency usage. Thoughts like these just ponders in my head as graduation closes in.

Sometimes looking at my friends and seeing them sad just makes me sad too. Though they smile and hide their feelings, I will know their true thoughts..You might be thinking that I need someone to console me? Thank you to those who asked me if i'm fine and try to make me smile and feel better. Then you might say, what about asking someone to help you, like a boyfriend. Well, the last thing on my mind is to find a boyfriend since i don't have one. People say: "Come, I help you find boyfriend." Thank You for the offer, but I don't wan to burden someone else of my burdens, I don't him to worry for me as I will feel sadder.

Pouring everything out just made me cry.
:"( Don't worry everyone, I will go through this no matter what. I won't give up and I will be positive!

Oh my LEG~

Haiz...i hope i can recover fast..my leg my leg. why why why. I hate being sick or injured and now my leg is badly injured. Like when i used to get minor injuries from skate, I will still continue to skate no matter how pain. Now leh, i want to work also cannot work, cause if i were to stress my leg too much and worsen the condition, i know that I won't be able to do all those things I love and longing to do..

I also wanna thank my friends for the TLC(Tender Loving Care). I love u guys so much! Hope to see u guys soon..miss ya!

TO LARISSA & XIANG! Thank you both loads! If there was a word that is greater than thank you. that would be it. Thank you for the care! =)

TO DOs before Attachment!

EAT:
MARVELOUS FOOD(steak, pasta, dons etc.)


GO:
To this pub that has this amazing scenery!


DO:
SKATE!


Will update details & more TO DOs!