I told myself today that today was the saddest time of my life. Then I wonder, no it's not, it's just that I have been always happy but once in a while the thoughts of the burdens just crush it all. Not only burdens that crushes my happy days but seeing my friends and family feeling sad, it just weighs me down..
Too many burdens to clear and so little time..
Thinking for my future, my sibling's future..thinking bout the worst scenarios that could happened. Looking at my parents' depleting health, it just makes me worry more..I can't bear to go overseas to study, cause I will miss them and everyone else, worrying about them and wondering how they are coping. If I were financially stable, I might have lesser burdens. Maybe i shouldn't continue on my studies..I just work to earn money for my siblings' future & for emergency usage. Thoughts like these just ponders in my head as graduation closes in.
Sometimes looking at my friends and seeing them sad just makes me sad too. Though they smile and hide their feelings, I will know their true thoughts..You might be thinking that I need someone to console me? Thank you to those who asked me if i'm fine and try to make me smile and feel better. Then you might say, what about asking someone to help you, like a boyfriend. Well, the last thing on my mind is to find a boyfriend since i don't have one. People say: "Come, I help you find boyfriend." Thank You for the offer, but I don't wan to burden someone else of my burdens, I don't him to worry for me as I will feel sadder.
Pouring everything out just made me cry.
:"( Don't worry everyone, I will go through this no matter what. I won't give up and I will be positive!
