A Night With 7 Botaks!

Had a great night out with 7 BOTAKS! All the May Babies including ME! Wee~ These ppl are so fun! I really don't mind going out wif them again! WAHAHAHA! XD Had steamboat plus side dishes for dinner! Yummy~ So nice of them to pay the rest of the bill for me while i only paid $10. Thanks again! :) Had like 2 bowls of rice! YUMMY!!~ Hahaha..then we head to Jab for drinks & K-session! Hahaha..sooo FUN! Omg~ Justin U SING DAM WELL! O.O As for the rest, no worries, u guys sang well too! :D Justin & emoison(LOL, i don't know how to spell his name) left while the rest of us head to Toa Payoh to get Kar Fai's car. On the way there, got inspected by 2 cops asking for our ICs & why are we still out late at night. Zzz..so unlucky. Never mind about that..we drove to Alameen for supper! YEA! Miss those days, eating dinner or supper after a long day of projects! Serious people, Eric & I are just close friends..I don't want to be single but unavailable. Last of all, thanks Kar Fai for the ride home! :)

CLEAR!

What's clear? Alot of things.. One of them is that I'm certainly not going to join TRIO as a full timer..i think i will DIE within a few months. Really hope LTM will take me as a full timer, boss reply my msg leh, i want to get my pay too u know! X) Plus, I seriously need a full time job..not just to save for uni but to also give my parents & my siblings that extra money. OMG! I just realized those recent blog post filled with anger & sadness...O.O Hahaha..maybe this is my ranting place..wahahaha. Ohoh! hey stalkers from eric's section or bunk, actually i don't know what is it. I mean friendly stalkers..hahaha. XD Eric & I are just friends ok..ji dan gao. Shh..don't need to say my post out loud! hahaha. But whatever u read in the previous posts, that's all cleared! I hereby declare that I'm not into E.T.K.P. hahaha. Crap..I'm really hungry right now, must be the after sickness hunger..hahaha. Just recovered from a real bad headache & fever. Gosh..want to change name in IC also so troublesome. Need to get some lawyer's letter with parent's approval cause I'm under 21. Zzz..Should have signed up next year..and i doubt my mum will approve it, cause when I told her I wanted the name Yvette, she said: "what kind of name is that?!" GOSH, my money~

Do not understand.

I really don't get it. U said u just wan to stay tat way & nothing more even if we could or might have more. What is this? what r u trying to say? R u trying to tell me we should stay that way and nothing more coz of the list of things we wan our other half to be? What is this? havent u seen enough of the world to know that those things are juz fantasy? But i might be wrong..too confused. Why are things this way, havent i had enough burdens & hardships to get through? I should probably bury myself with work to refresh myself away from all these things.

Disappointed.

Feel so disappointed & used.
Seriously, am I a tool for yr entertainment or maybe just to fill up the emptiness that you have? What kind of friend are you, ya right, no secrecy. Bullshit i would say. Please, don't talk to me again unless u have a reasonable reason. Can't believe i treated you like a friend. Entertain you when u bored, talk to you when u are down & this is how you treat me. WOW, marvelous *claps*, i feel so honored to be your freaking portable entertainment system. Really thanks loads, dont let me hear from you that we shouldnt have secrets between each other, coz you are the one keeping it all in. JERK!

I need someone..

I have never been so sad for such a long period of time..

I need a shoulder to cry on..or i will start crying behind close doors.
PPL say u need a bf to help u. I'll say who is willing to unload those burdens on my shoulders and place it on theirs? I hav too much that it is drowning me..
I figured out that i most probably wont pursue further studies to save up..

I've drown too much to love, I've given to much to ask for mine, I'm losing the strength that once held those burdens and now..i'm losing my faith. I'm getting more evil, so please back away from me before I hurt anyone. Just let me cry alone and be alone no matter how much i yearn for one's love and attention as i require those TLC(Tender Loving Care) from those lovely people that i know..